I'll Just Keep Pretending

im the kind of girl who is completely braindead, (I mean look, I just spelled I'm "im") I just pretend to be clever and it doesn't really work out for me, but I don't care, I mean, I'm pretty cute right. People will probably just keep their focus on my cuteness instead of start wondering why I'm so stupid. I'm a fucking retard, I'm not even good at english, I just pretend so, and maybe yea, maybe it will be alright for me. Well I'm known as "Mathie Macabre" at the internet, and you can actually google me! I make loads of videos and upload them at youtube. I'm sure a lot of my friends has been wathcing these videos with a big smile on their lips. And not the "she's cute and she's MY FRIEND-smile", more something like "she's an imbecile and this is so embarrasing". But, what so ever. No, I do care, just not that much, I taught myself to be innocent. Innocent like, you know. I'm stupid, and that's kind of innocent right. I'm kind of a useless person in this world, I'm starting to become some kind of an internet famous person thing, and why? I mean, I created all this, it's all my fault. everyone could dress like me and take pictures and then rape them with photoshop, no big deal at all. But you didn't do it, and therefore, this can't be compared. I even found a girl's blog today, she'd wrote some "top 3 lists" and then one of them was called "top 3 prettiest girls". guess what, at number 3 was "Mathie Macabre". Holy shit, i AM famous. Well I like the thought. I'm not that fame, you know. But I will be. Maybe. Not. I have to give up this obsession, it's messed up man.

chill out, it was a joke. :)
i'll just keep pretending